and NOT having the time of my life. My back has been a mess ever since Wednesday night...when I woke up at 1:30 in the morning with the worst back spasm I have ever had in my whole life. I was completely freaking out, pacing back and forth, hyperventilating, because I had NEVER ever experienced such excruciating pain. Jorge, of course, got up with me and was attempting to calm me down, which I eventually did, and my muscles were able to relax a little bit. We were very close to going into the emergency here in Yumbel, because the pain seemed out of control, but in the end Jorge gave me half of a muscle relaxant that he had and I layed down with a hot waterbottle on my back, and then eventually, cried myself to sleep...what a mess.
The next day we got up and drove into Concepcion, where we dropped Josiah off with Jorge's Mother, and then went to a doctor. He gave me some pills, one to take at night and one during the day, and said they are okay for me to take and are nursing safe. Basically he just said that my problem is my upper back muscles, carrying the baby too much and not having good posture...and I will need to strengthen my back muscles over the next few months so as to not have more of these same issues.
Well, I started taking these pills, but I am really starting to regret it and wonder if I should continue. I took one Thursday during the day and then Thursday at night before bed...and then Friday morning the fun began. I spent basically ALL of Friday in the bathroom...I was throwing up everything that I would try to eat..couldn't even keep water down, and then to make things even better I had the runs and man...and with the strength that I was having to use to vomit, my back muscles were tightening up more and more...to the point that it hurt, literally all day, to breath! I thought maybe I just got a bug or something while we were in Conce the day before, but then last night Jorge looked at the small print on the pills where it says "side affects"..."could produce vomiting..." Riiiigggghhhhht. I decided I would try to keep taking them for another day or two to see if things got better...but they havent improved that much. Today I havent thrown up and felt ok in the morning...but in the afternoon the pain came back strong, bringing me to tears once again...and I have been nauseous all evening. That AND my insides are all aching terribly!! I had this same pain yesterday, but I thought it was due to so much vomiting...but today has been no exception.
Anyways, I do ask for your prayers. I feel bad that this post has been just me complaining...but I really can't speak about anything positive, feeling the way I do. ok, one positive thing is Josiah...he has been such a sweetie, he knows that I am in a lot of pain and keeps coming up and hugging me saying "oohhh Mummy, a owie in the back?" lol. He is my little treasure, oh how I love him. This morning he walked into the kitchen all hunched over and says "Mummy, I a owie in my back", haha. Any time I am laying in bed or sitting with pillows behind my back he comes and sits beside me and pretends that he is experiencing the same pain that I have...in some ways, it makes me feel a bit better because it takes my mind off of the pain. Anyways, I ask for your prayers...this pain is really awful and am worried that it may never go away...but I know my Healer can do miracles, and I am praying for one right now.
Will write again soon.
